its not my fault,I SWEAR!

ya ALLAH,im not strong enough for this.ya ALLAH,because of the small matter,ive been blamed.i know,im no use to you,but,imSORRY.with all my heart i SWEAR,i really didnt want all this to happen.ive been rejected.FINE! i dont care.but please,forgive me. i dont really know why do i have to oppologise,its because of YOU.perhaps,you didnt give to much hope to me so that your heart wouldnt CRUSHED like mine.abseloutly CRUSHED.ya ALLAH,only you can understands me/.its THE only you.so please,help me.i need your HELP.sometimes,ive thought that,everything beed mine forever.but,i guessed wrongly.ive lost from your real track.so please,guide me back.and to YOU, i hate you damn fucking bad.and imnm not gonna pull my words back.THANK YOU,very much :)))